Natterbiss
New member
Hi, thanks for opening this up 
Mostly, I created this profile because I was feeling somewhat lonely - generally speaking, not solely sexual.
Therefore, topics aside from bdsm are welcome as well.
Nevertheless, bdsm is playing a huge part in why I'm feeling a bit lost.
I'm in my early 20s, living in Germany, AFAB;
and I've always been drawn to dark, wicked atmospheres.
Even in early childhood, I noticed masochistic arousal when I saw cartoon characters trapped, for example.
Yet, I'm lacking in actual engagement with it.
Most of the time, I avoided sex and relationships, despite being highly curious.
At 18, I got into my first relationship (not vanilla, but nothing too extreme),
after it ended (at 19 going on to 20) I became a stripper.
Atm, I don't have to rely on that job, but I still work 2 times a month.
Up until a year ago, I went to university; ultimately, I want to go back.
Unfortunately, I paused because of a fellow student borderline pressured me into a relationship.
There was no personal growth going on either side; in fact, it was pretty abusive.
Yet, the bdsm aspect of it was great and my life feels emptier without it.
Not sure how active this forum is, but I appreciate anyone taking their time to read/reply my introduction.
Take care.
Mostly, I created this profile because I was feeling somewhat lonely - generally speaking, not solely sexual.
Therefore, topics aside from bdsm are welcome as well.
Nevertheless, bdsm is playing a huge part in why I'm feeling a bit lost.
I'm in my early 20s, living in Germany, AFAB;
and I've always been drawn to dark, wicked atmospheres.
Even in early childhood, I noticed masochistic arousal when I saw cartoon characters trapped, for example.
Yet, I'm lacking in actual engagement with it.
Most of the time, I avoided sex and relationships, despite being highly curious.
At 18, I got into my first relationship (not vanilla, but nothing too extreme),
after it ended (at 19 going on to 20) I became a stripper.
Atm, I don't have to rely on that job, but I still work 2 times a month.
Up until a year ago, I went to university; ultimately, I want to go back.
Unfortunately, I paused because of a fellow student borderline pressured me into a relationship.
There was no personal growth going on either side; in fact, it was pretty abusive.
Yet, the bdsm aspect of it was great and my life feels emptier without it.
Not sure how active this forum is, but I appreciate anyone taking their time to read/reply my introduction.
Take care.
